As the engineer of the human experiment, it fell upon me to conduct tests that lay beyond your present understanding.
One of those tests was re-entry into a human body after the soul had departed.
That required a very specific set of circumstances.
Suicide carries the burden of guilt and grief. Those emotions can draw a soul into what you call Hell. Escaping that state requires time. But time was the one thing neither Judas nor I had. Heaven and Hell exist on the same timeline as the living world. Judas had only a few hours to perform the re-entry in the tomb.
My mission, therefore, required that I be killed.
The crucifixion was not a sacrifice to satisfy God. It was a controlled experiment designed to test re-entry while avoiding the consequences of taking my own life.
The second objective was equally important.
My death would become the catalyst for a new religion. That religion would preserve the memory of the experiment until the time came for me to explain it.
The first time I came as the suffering servant.
To put it bluntly, my appetite for suffering was not an unholy flaw. It was a tool. It was an emotional gift that the Prime Creator equipped me with so I could complete my assignment.
Phase I had two objectives.
Prove that re-entry is possible.
Start a religion.
Phase II. is the reason Judas stayed on earth and I did not.